5/16

Today I went to Roosevelt Field with my sister and cousins. I finally made some changes. ( As Sandra's wish. ) My cousin bought a lot of things, for example ipad, even though I really have no idea what that is. Hagen Dize was really tasteful and I finally found the taste that I want - Rum Risen.

This might be the last one that I wrote in this semester. I really have a lot of things want to write, but it is really hard to change the emotion to words. No matter what is the end, I am going to miss all of you.

fin.

5/14

I had a lot of fun at the party today. Everyone danced so good. I hope " one day " , I can dance like them. I know that I am going to miss everyone, although, we still have a week can stay with each other. Starting from now, I am sad about the end. It is really hard to say good-bye, although I already prepare for a long time. But I also hope that everyone can go to campus and study the subjects that they want. It is very contradictory, but i know there will have a new beginning which is waiting for all of us.

5/11

Few days before, I finially knew the situations that in the story, " Three Little Pigs ". The big wolf really can blow down the houses. That night, I really felt the house was shaking! At first, I thought it was an earthquake. But few seconds later, I remembered that New York has no earthquake. Then I discovered the huge noice that the wind made. A second later, I realized the reason that the house was shaking was the wind. It is very scary, but also funny. If my mom heard this, she might kill me. Haha.. Then, a wired thought came out of my mind.

" No wonder New York has no earthquake and typhoon. They don't need it! They already have this terrible wind. "

5/9

Get drunk with today,

dream about tomorrow.

Parts of past events appear

located in calm is the hullaballoo.

Just like the wind in the autumn,

blow and let petals remnant in the sky.



Tonight the wind blow so loud. It is the thing that comes to my mind when I heard those sounds. I even feel that my house is shaking. Then, another picture comes out is a person stand in the forest and petals fly around. In my memery, it is one of the most beautiful pictures that touches me a lot.

Many things happened in these two days. Frist, someone that I close was sent to the hospital. I heard that was a car accident. I don't know if it is horribe or not, but I still worry about her, a lot. The reason that I know this thing is I called her yesterday and her anut told me that she was in the hospital. I seldom call my friends in Taiwan because it is really expensive. But I called her because my neckless was broken that she give me as a birthday present. It makes me feel that something was happened and that thing was a bad thing.I really hope she can get better and NEVER drive cars by herself.

5/4

It is May now, the season of hay fever. Haven't have a summer here before. I really don't know if I can make it or not. I heard my anut said that every May my uncle will have a terrible hay fever. It makes me feel scared a little bit. Be honest, I had a bad experience of this.

Since this month, the electric fan is going to become a good friend of me. Although I grew up in a tropical island, I still afraid of hot weather.

5/2

Oti, the small new cat's name. Based on her owner's lazy personality, I still have no pictures of this small girl, although she promised me.( It happens a lot.. ) Yesterday, she left me some messages about Oti's funny activities. One of them is she ,sometimes, stealthily eat things when my friend s sleeping. She usually leaves some food on her desk. I think it is the reason that Oti can find food easily and eat them. Since Oti becomes a family member of my friend's family, I have already enamored with her. Hope that friend will remember her promise and send me some pictures. Then I can put some on this blog.

4/30

Yesterday I went to the campus with my friends for voting and the party. Everything there was free and had many dolls. I tried to get one, but the only thing that I got was this purple dice. Although it was not my purpose, but I still like this small thing. At least, I think it is beautiful.

This was the first time that I voted and saw the vote machine. It was really a fun experience that " playing " wih that machine. Although I really could not reember that who I voted, at least, I am a part of this activity.

4/28

I hear you hungey, I hear you cry.
She gives you milk and you start to laugh.
She adopts you from Hades' hands,
when you almost goes to heaven.


This is the thing came out when my friend told me that she adopted a cat. When we were in higj school, we planed to adopt a cat or dog in our dorm. Of course, it was also a secret. Now, she adopted a cat first. I am jealous, but also feel happy about her. It is because her emotion has some problems. That cat might help her to defeat those problems.

4/25

A writer and an editor.To complement each other.It is like two faces of a penny.Have a man and a house.The house provides the residences for the man and the man builds the house.

Just few minutes ago, one of my friends asked me to check her short story that she wants to publish on the Internet. Based on my opinion, or my fastidious "stomach" of reading, and my Chinese knowledge( she said. ), she wanted me to tell her some advices. To have this extra work, in fact, I feel very happy because it means I have another example can use!

4/24

These days, I become to like Japaness songs. I heard many songs from cartoons and Internet, such as my friends' blog. Maybe the most important reason is many of my friends like Japan and Korea. Then they played and sang many Japaness and Korean songs and I learned some of the words.But, in fact, I have no idea why I become to like them. One of the reason is I really don't know what are they singing about! One of my friend said that it is because you don't understant the meaning, so it becomes a really good thing for relax your brain.

4/21

Just finished a short story, but troubled for the next begining immediately.

Are lives just like this?

Always walking back and forth between begining and ending.


Read the same book repeatedly, the words jumped out of control.

Revised the librettoes and created the different endings.

Are lives just like this?

Always using the different ways to falsify the dream.

4/18

Heard some music that I know very well. It makes me remember many things that happened before, but I forget. Growing up always makes me forget things, no matter how important it was. Many memeries loss because of this, I think. Haven't thought before that I am a person who is yearned for the past. Longer I listen to those music, more I can remember those important things. Then stupider I feel myslf. It is not only about the stupid things that I have done, but it is also about the wrong decitions that I have made before.

4/17

Thoughts always emerge in large number when the time that I don't want to think.

Thwy come one by one, good and bad.

Black tea is still warm, but its favor has a little bit difference.

Should I impute to the water?

Or it is just because the time of taste is overdue.

It is just like at a flowering season.

After being in full blooms, they will all be withered.

4/14

Today I heard a big, important news from my cousin. She said that my favorite singers will come to New York in June ! But they didn't say the complete date. If they can come before 6/22, then I can go to their vocal recital. Althiugh I have become their fan for very long time, Ihave never went to their any activities. It is not only because I was busy with my school works, but it is also because the time and the place that they held the vocal recitals were not match with me. Ihope I can go and see the real SHE ( the group's name ) look like.

4/11

Few minutes before, I found a test that I did many years before. At first, it shows a picture like this. What do you see? Many people say they see a white paper. That's right! It is a white paper.




















Then, it shows another paper like this one. The same answer before, what do you see?



















If you say you see a black point, we can not say that is wrong. But, why do not you say that you see a white paper? In the paper, the white part is more than black part, but many people just focus on that point.

This test taught me that we can not just focus on the small things in a big group and think that is all of fact. We must focus on what it really is. I don't know if my thought is right or not. But I hope this test will gove you some notices.

4/10

Today I went to hospital with my mother and my younger sister. Today is the day that the doctor has to tell my mother if the tumor isbenignor not. I was really affraid of getting the message about this. At the same time, my sister got a serious cold. I needed to see the doctor with her because she is only fifteen years old. During the time, I can not really pay attensoin to my sister's doctor. But I am really happy that my mother is all right now.

4/7

Today one of my friends gave me a prepaid calling card. Of caurse I paid. It was really excited to call my old friends in Taiwan. Although the time can not be very match, I still felt happy about talking with them.

Few days before, someone introduced me a cartoon which made from Japan. It is talking about some people can control monsters. Some of them want to destory the world. The rest of the are trying to safe the world from those bad guys. Many cartoons' plots are very similar with this one. But I think it will make us have the same thing to talk with.

4/4

Few days before, I heard some of my friends' stories. I realized that sometimes, one plus one is not always equaled two. Being used to do something is not necessary to keep those habit in the future. But those feelings is just like addictions. Can not run away or abstain from them. Maybe it is destiny for us to face these repetitions.

4/1

April Fool's Day, a festival of joke and trick. Drifferent with Halloween, today has no treat. For the people who still keep traces of childishness, today is the best day. For me, of caurse, I love this holiday. Maybe I will put some strange somethings in lunch. But I think my mother will not allow me to do that, because it is really a waste. Or I will create some new dishes.

P.S Happy holiday, everyone!

3/31

Past three days were filled by rain. I think this is why road works start very early today and make a lot of noise. Those sound let me can not fall asleep at all. But they just sounds like the "old days" in my country. Suddenly, I felt some of conventional feelings came back.

These days I always dream about strange things. Is these means something? Well.. I think I will never know that. Or I will never want to know that.

3/28

Today I saw a move named Pakt der Wolfe. It is talking about a monster kills people in Franch at . It kills only women and childen and noone knows its ture colours. The actor goes to that town and tries to find out the turth. This move cost a live of his best friend. In the end of the movie, he discovers that the monster has been trained. Of course, he kills the bad man and the monster and saves the girl that he loves. But this movie makes me feel that the monster is not the most dangerous and fearful, the human is.

3/24

Since yesterday afternoon, I have a terrible fever and headache. I have not had fever for a long time. Maybe it is because the weather is changing or just a new illness that I have no antibody. I wake up by many nightmares. Some of them are about goast, som of them are about death and the rest of them are someone want to kill me. Although I know I was dreaming, it still scary. Having a fever is really uncomfortable. I hope I can go to class tomorrow.

3/22

The first day with Christina. Just like before, we have a lot of changes. But they look like not bad. 10 minutes' flash writing is really rushed, but I think it may be really helpful for us. Three posts a week, one more than before. Haha.. it may be a " problem " to me or maybe just an easy thing. But for a lazy person, I think the persentage of forgetting is pretty high.

3/18

3/17

I meet a friend from lst semester. She is a girl who is from Korea. She usually drive me to the bus stop and let me go home fater. I really miss her and happy that I can see her today.

3/18

Today is the last day of this semester. I really can not say that I will not be upset. The last day, I hope we can have a happy ending and also have a new start, no matter with who.

3/14

Yesterday, my mother's doctor found a tumor in my mother's uterus. Although it is not big, we still not know that if it is benign or not. I have already dreamed some bad things for sometimes. I don't want those things to be ture. Although I am a optimistic person, I still worry about her. I really hope that she will be fine.

3/8

Now I really realize a joke that my friends and I talked about. " Earth is not safe! Go back to your Mars! " Not only Earth is not safe, the buses are not safe, too.

The " story " began from an old woman came into the bus. She carried some dirty bags and her pockpockets fell by toilet papers or something like that. ( I think those papers had been used already. ) At usual, I won't notice that because I usually think about somthing else or sleep. But she sat in front of me and asked me if I have a radio or not. Who will carry a radio walking around? Although my MP4 can listen to radio, but it made from Taiwan, can it get America's receptions? I wonder. So, of caurse, i said no. She kept said the same thing that a man died at Mineola station. If my ears didn't break yet, she at least said ten times. ( Until now, I still not sure if this is ture or not. ) Because of no one talked with her, she became quiet. But just for a short time. I forget at which stop, bus driver braked the bus too quickly. A passenger didn't stand steady and her bag hit that woman. She started to said some crazy things and even stood beside the driver and kept saying " That seat is not safe. " Also, tried to hinder the way to pass through. ( Please allow me to say this, because it was very difficult to walk when she was standing there. ) Other passengers told her it was an accident, but she didn't listen and even said to one of the passenger who is the man beside her that he had to shut up. Here is the words that I remember " You must shut up, or I am gonna to kill you. If it is not for recycle, I am gonna to kill you right now. "

Well...I have never known that recycling is important than human being's lives.

3/7

"Three days a fight, five days a war." It's a proverb from traditional Chiness culture. Now days, things are still unchanged. Every families has problems and the most difficult one is communication. It is also the hardest one to fix.

Sometimes, selfish is necessary, but if it becomes too much, it will destory everything.

To be or not to be. A question from my old friend. But we still not find the method to solve it.

3/3

Growing wisdom teeth ( I don't know if the name is it or not.) makes me very painful. It hurts when I smile, laugh, eat, talk, or even do nothing. It also makes me disturb. Patieces become a little bit lack and manners of speaking become a little bit bad, too. I think the best way is not talk. Haha, a typical evader.

Today around 7 p.m, Taiwan had an earthquake, too. It was nt as big as Haiti or Chile, but it still had 6.4. The epicenter is the place that inflict heavy losses by a terrible typhoon. Did it cost any life? The information is still covered.

2/28

Using a whole night to finish a book was very uneasy. Sometimes, my father came and asked me what I am doing. Sometimes , my mother came and asked me to go to sleep. Or even my sister came and said she wants to play with me. Time past, it is already 4 : 37 and third times of my mother " begged " with a big voice, I finished my book. How amazing!!!!!

Also, today is Lantern Festival. This is a day of seeing decorative lanterns and eating dumplings made of glutinous flour. Exactly, i almost forget this holiday.

2/24

Today I heard my mother said that the snow loops Long Island. " It sounds like the snow just want to hit Long Island! We will have more break! " my younger sister said. Her childish words make me don't know whether to laugh or to cry.

Snow is coming again. I was very happy about that the landscapes the snow brings. But I still feel troublesome about clesning it. It's very complicated, but it's what i feel at this moment.

2/21

This morning I went to Staples to buy new profolioes. The old one was almost broken into pieces. When my mother saw that profolio, she always laught at me. So this time, I chose the plastic one. I hope it will be alive longer then the older one.

One of my friends in Taiwan told me that a program that she loves is almost ending. She adviced me to watch it on the Internet. She said it is the kind that I will like. Should I watch it? I will find the answer out.

2/20

Today is my 19th birthday. Some Chiness believe that 9, 19, 29, 39...are not a ausicious number, so they don't celebrate at these ages, but not me! I don't believe at this part.

My family and I went to Flushing to buy a birthday cake. This time, it is prefect. I made pasta for binner and celebrate with my cousin and my family. All of my best friends in Taiwan send me messages or even called me. It's very expensive for calling across the sea. I am very touch of that. One of them told me that they assembled together and called me by planed. The leader is my bes friend, Han, the person I always called "sis".

It's a very special birthday gift and I love it.

2/13

Chiness New Year, a traditional holiday in China and Taiwan. My family members prepared a lot of food. But we had all most 20 or more people there, so we had no rest. We saw a Taiwaness movie and play mahjong. I think it's one of the quintessences of Chiness culture, just for me. Of caurse, I am the winner in the end. I don't know how to explain the feeling that I had at that time. It's jusk like I will have a lucky year in 2010.

Time past, all of us didn't notice that time is already at 4. Even my mom, my aunt, my cousin's friend were already fell a sleep. I have a lot of fun there and I thnk my whole family does too. Wish this new year can pass like this happy begining.

snow

A little break of two days by snow. It is the first time that the class closed because of snow. It's really a special experience for a person who lives in tropical climate. Although the temperature is very cold, it still can not stop me to go out and play. " It's very unbelievable that school is closed for 2 days. " said by my cousin. Another thing that make me feel very interesting is the supermarket doesn't have fresh milk, even bread. It sounds like the things happen when typhoon goes to Taiwan.

Midnight or almost morning, still think too much or just don't want the end comes too fast. Even though the hands are freezen, I still want stay longer. Sometimes, I really want have some lovestories can make me relax. But I still can not find the on I like.

2/7

Yesterday night, I dreamed a lot of strange dreams. Are they nightmares? I asked myself. Not exactly. But somehow, many of them came out of my head more then twice and rest of them were continuous. Maybe it's a proverb in Chiness, " Thinking in the daytime, dreaming in the nighttime. "

Againest, the libery doesn't have the book I want. " Endymion Spring " , the book that I have been finding for 6 months. Some people say that there is no this book and some of others say the whole Nassau don't have this book. But how can I go to Queens by myself? So that I can only wait for someone else wants or needs to go to Queens and bring me there too.

2/5

Today I cannot fall asleep again. There are too many things bother me.
Sometimes, they make me feel very tired.

Chiness New Year is coming. It is a big different that celebrated without my friends and my mother side family manbers.

A quite night always makes me think too many negative things and feel a ittle bit upset. But I still have to be strong and keep the way I am going. I don't want to be regreted.

unlucky

Today is not a nice day to me. Since I woke up, I have a small fight with my mother. when i went out, I realized that I forgot to wear my scarf. But the door was lucked already, so I start to go to the bus stop. This bus is alays come at 12 something, but today it came at 12:20. It means I was already wai in the cold weather for at least 30 minutes. I am happy that I didn't become an ice girl. When I got Roosevelt Field, i still waited for 20 minutes. Then, I get off the bus at bookstore and I went in. After that I went to T Building to change my school ID card. But I forgot to bring the bill, so it's a futile effect.And I was late, I think it's was my first time being late.

After school, I miss the bus because I forgot something and , againest, I take the wrong bus.I realized this thing when I was already arrived Hamstead. It's was totally different way to my house.Next time I should not ask passengers if the bus goes to somewhere or not.

First Day

Today was the first day of my new class. Many of my "ex-"classmates were in room 103.I was a little bit upset, but we can still meer during the break time.

The new class has four people come from Dominican Republic. I was very jealous because until now, I have neer meet any friend from Taiwan in America. Although it may help me to use English more, I still hope I can find some in the future.